God knows what that shadow was up to .While I ,the mom,frozen with fear ,unable to move an inch out of that paralysed bed .Or had I helplessly got reduced to a selfish human ,whose primordial fear ,even overtook the maternal instinct in her ? In that ,that i didn't move out of that deplorable bed to go and check on the well being of my lill' one?!!All the while wanting to scream ,but probably too benumbed by the horror of the unwelcome visitation .
After a couple of minutes of its movement to and fro ,it finally and most menacingly decided to allow its steps to flow towards my room .(While I ,as I faintly recall ,was up to, as if , hoodwinking the hobgoblin that i was as hard asleep as could be ,so it could carry on unhindered ,with its plans .The instinct of self preservation,screamed loudest ,in the process,proclaimed though ,with a guilt ridden tongue ).It came right behind my bed ,behind my head .That was it !By then my fear had reached it point of saturation ,to come out bursting in the irrepressible screams ,that happened breathlessly . But the trauma ,as i understand ,was far too much for me to go through .And ,the pain of not having been able to hear even one of those screams ,that had seemingly erupted full blast ,was what i scummed to .It remained all bottled up?Yes ,it did .There were actually no horror stricken screams at all !I still fail to understand it all ?
I sat awake ,wide awake ,as if ,for the first time .Yes ! it actually was for the first time ,that i became conscious of the scenario around ,still not accepting ,that all that which had just occurred was a neat nightmare.To me i had seen all that ,with my eyes first opened to the soft sound of her anklets.How could i open my eyes all over again to realize that it was a vision that belonged to the canvass that the mind paints .And so adroit that it emerges as the finest of the fine creations!With that absolute "willing suspension of disbelief" achieved ,that it leaves you absolutely confounded with the intensity with which it hits you .
I continued sitting frozen in my bed for a good fifteen minutes after the vision dissolved itself most mysteriously
behind my bed .I could still not dare to step down ,to check on my daughter sleeping most innocently in the other room .
While my simple friend ,in her kind innocence advised me the next morning,of the standard ways to ward off evil spirits ,I found myself left wondering at the ingenious ways of the human mind .And jokes apart ,as we might want to now laugh at the comedy of the so horrifying nightmare .
But time to ruminate...Do we turn illusions into realities and our life into a journey of a series of escapes ?